I have to admit, the Princess in me got pretty excited about being on stage again. I did some childrens theater while in high school, but it has been a long time since the spot light has shined on this gal. Thankfully, there was enough hunger for the limelight to overpower the self conscious nerves and no so subtle inner voices that constantly nagged at me during rehearsals.
“You look ridiculous! You’re likely to trip over your own feet. There you’ll go ass-over-tea kettle in front of everyone. Your skirt will fly up over your head for sure! Better wear nice panties.” Ugh!
Being with other nervous adults was a huge help too. You know the saying “misery loves company”? Well, misery is not alone. We all love company when we face something nerve wracking or new to us. I made fast friends with Kristy, who in my opinion is the picture of grace. We both joked about our fears of eminent embarrassment on the big stage and realized that if the worst did happen; neither of us would be alone. Our dance was pretty simple so after the first couple shows both of us were able to calm down and really enjoy participating.
The gangley twinkle toes of yesterday may seem like a mediocre middle-aged poser to some, but to those that count, I am extraordinary. Best of all, fears have been conquered, life has been lived and twinkle toes has been redeemed.
Is there something you have always wanted to do but life has held you back? Maybe there is a way to embrace your passion on a smaller, more manageable scale. I will (probably) never dance with Baryshnikov but this experience came awfully close as far as emotional payoff is concerned. Think about it!